Bestfriend.
POSTED ON Sunday, April 14, 2013 AT 4:02 AM \\
Okay. I am watching Definitely, maybe right now and then it hit me. I felt like I need to write about this right now or else I will forget about it. Here it goes.
It was in the middle of this mini-summer when I read a book entitled "Slammed" recommended by a friend. I had nothing else to do. I feel accomplished when I read books.. and finish them. I don't know; it just gives me that feeling. So yes, I was reading this book not knowing where it'll take me. I had just started with the story when something meaningful came up in the book. I mean, I had no idea it was coming. It just came. And then it hit me. Alright, I'm babbling. But here's is this character, Layken, and she turned out to share the same story with me. Well, not totally but at a particular aspect of life.
BESTFRIEND.
Layken had no bestfriend. Well she had nobody to consider one. She had friends but they're not someone she thought she could call as such. She thought maybe she was too busy for bestfriends. Maybe she's not a good listener. Maybe she's not a good sharer.
LIKE ME.
That's exactly how I feel.
I have a couple of friends but I feel like they do not trust me enough. You know that feeling you get when you learn something about them from other people? I know that. It hurts. Every one of my friends have made me feel like that. It's like I'm always the last one to know. That makes me a bad listener. Nobody wants to confide in me.
To be honest, I don't tell my friends everything about me either. Why? 'Cause I don't feel like they're interested in my life. I feel like my life's not worth sharing, so why bother? And I just run out of words when I'm trying to explain myself anyway. Which makes me a bad sharer.
Yes, I have many friends. But what I need is someone who can trust me, who would want me to be the first one to know what's happening to his/her life, and in turn I can talk to and trust with everything. What I need is someone who will share and someone I can share with.
Having no one to talk to about everything is sad. Having nobody to share this with sucks.
Okay this sucks. Let's end this
Trust issues sa sarili ko =(
POSTED ON Saturday, April 6, 2013 AT 8:59 AM \\
Hello. I'm here.
Everytime I was asked to describe myself, the word ‘trustworthy’ was always on top of the list. Who was I kidding? Right, myself. All my life I thought I was that kind of person. Good thing people around me proved I was wrong. Thank you, my dear friends for making me realize I do not deserve that adjective to describe myself.
But wait..
I do not have the right to call myself a friend of someone if he/she does not tell me what’s going on in his/her life. What right do I have to call myself his/her (close) friend if I don’t even know what he/she is going through (or worse hear his/her situation from other people). I have no right, right. Now I know better. And I am deleting that word from my favorite adjectives.
You’re not a friend if you are not trustworthy. Booyahh, Marize!
For once, I just want to feel trusted. Even once.
Bestfriend.
POSTED ON Sunday, April 14, 2013 AT 4:02 AM \\
Okay. I am watching Definitely, maybe right now and then it hit me. I felt like I need to write about this right now or else I will forget about it. Here it goes.
It was in the middle of this mini-summer when I read a book entitled "Slammed" recommended by a friend. I had nothing else to do. I feel accomplished when I read books.. and finish them. I don't know; it just gives me that feeling. So yes, I was reading this book not knowing where it'll take me. I had just started with the story when something meaningful came up in the book. I mean, I had no idea it was coming. It just came. And then it hit me. Alright, I'm babbling. But here's is this character, Layken, and she turned out to share the same story with me. Well, not totally but at a particular aspect of life.
BESTFRIEND.
Layken had no bestfriend. Well she had nobody to consider one. She had friends but they're not someone she thought she could call as such. She thought maybe she was too busy for bestfriends. Maybe she's not a good listener. Maybe she's not a good sharer.
LIKE ME.
That's exactly how I feel.
I have a couple of friends but I feel like they do not trust me enough. You know that feeling you get when you learn something about them from other people? I know that. It hurts. Every one of my friends have made me feel like that. It's like I'm always the last one to know. That makes me a bad listener. Nobody wants to confide in me.
To be honest, I don't tell my friends everything about me either. Why? 'Cause I don't feel like they're interested in my life. I feel like my life's not worth sharing, so why bother? And I just run out of words when I'm trying to explain myself anyway. Which makes me a bad sharer.
Yes, I have many friends. But what I need is someone who can trust me, who would want me to be the first one to know what's happening to his/her life, and in turn I can talk to and trust with everything. What I need is someone who will share and someone I can share with.
Having no one to talk to about everything is sad. Having nobody to share this with sucks.
Okay this sucks. Let's end this
Trust issues sa sarili ko =(
POSTED ON Saturday, April 6, 2013 AT 8:59 AM \\
Hello. I'm here.
Everytime I was asked to describe myself, the word ‘trustworthy’ was always on top of the list. Who was I kidding? Right, myself. All my life I thought I was that kind of person. Good thing people around me proved I was wrong. Thank you, my dear friends for making me realize I do not deserve that adjective to describe myself.
But wait..
I do not have the right to call myself a friend of someone if he/she does not tell me what’s going on in his/her life. What right do I have to call myself his/her (close) friend if I don’t even know what he/she is going through (or worse hear his/her situation from other people). I have no right, right. Now I know better. And I am deleting that word from my favorite adjectives.
You’re not a friend if you are not trustworthy. Booyahh, Marize!
For once, I just want to feel trusted. Even once.
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A derp who's interested in all sorts of life(food, travel, fashion, hair, nails, random cute stuff) but above all GOD. I am a dancer, singer, painter, artist.. oh, I mean I wish I was those. I'm still a student though, a proud ISKA. Favorite color is green, it's refreshing. Movies and Books are my best friends. I love adventures and I'm always in to new and extraordinary things.
